Geez Louise!

This little man is making sure I have what it takes to be his momma! The past few nights have been difficult. I am pooped, but more than that I hate that I can't figure it out. I haven't had any problems getting him to bed, maybe a tiny bit more resistence than normal, but then John wakes up in a couple hours and wants to stay up for 4 hours or so. Um...10 to 2 is prime sleeping time mister. Luckily, he only gets super pissy if I try to make him sleep, which between 10 and 2, I want to sleep so I try to make him sleep. First night, we tried that method. This boy has some will power! For 4 hours he was fighting me on the sleep. If I put him in his bed, he screamed, if I rocked him, he screamed, if I cradled him, he screamed, I even tried walking with him and shhhshing, he screamed. I didn't think he could be hungry so I didn't nurse him (hindsight is 20/20). Anyway, last night, I decided I would try and let him tell me what he wanted. So we sat and read books and I just let him stand up and I let him play with a toy while we sat in the chair. He was a pleasant little bugger, and he sure wasn't about to let a little exhaustion take him out. Finally at 2, he ate and went to sleep.

Speaking of the hunger, he has been all over the place with his eating schedule...the last couple of days he has been hungry every 2 hours! At this rate, John will be nursing every 15 minutes by the time he is 6 months old. ;) I THOUGHT IT WAS SUPPOSED TO GET EASIER. That is what everyone says...at 1 month, they say, hang in there, at 3 months things will be so much easier. Ok, so I thought the first month was pretty great, so I was thinking, I would be laid out in front of the tv most of the day, while John was vacuuming and taking out the trash. So month 2 was actually kinda interesting because he went from that fabulous period of me waking him to eat and giving me at least one 6 hour stretch at night and another 4, to wanting to eat every 4 hours on the dot. So then between month 3 and month 4 it was every 3 hours. And today it seems the kid is starving if it isn't every 2 hours. So since this seems to be a new habit, well maybe it has only been going on for 2.5 days, I called the pediatrician and lied saying this had been going on for 5 days (I mean, it could go on for 5 days and I need to be prepared ;), and the nursing consultant suspects he is just going thru a growth spurt and needs more from me than I am offering. She said hang in there for 10 days while my supply increases based on his demands...I am not sure she realizes how long 10 days is this little world of mine. Of course she thinks I only have 5 days to go!! If 10 days doesn't do it for the boy we are breaking into the rice cereal!

Of course everything changes every day so I don't know why I am stressing. I have had people comment "Don't let that become a habit"...don't you worry, this kid won't hear of it! Instead of trying to find the person that seems to understand my child, I have decided instead to write a book on caring for your baby. It will only require one chapter...so I guess it isn't a book...I will write a memo on caring for your baby. And the subject will be: "Your baby will do his own thing, despite what you want him to do, or what you expect him to do!"

And before anyone starts to think I am incredibly pitiful. The kid had a monumental nap day. 2 hours this morning. 1.5 hours midday and he has now been down for 35 minutes (at 3:45). Tonight we will test the theory, "if your baby naps well during the day, he will sleep well during the night". I am not even going to try and guess how it will all go. My plan is to breathe deeply and enjoy my son!

On another note, we went and picked out a new toy for the boy...